It’s been a lonnnnnnnggggg while since I wrote a blog. I could make excuses but they would all be bad, so we’ll skip that and I’ll cut straight to this post.
The topic of this post: why I can’t finish the Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy books.
First, some background information. I lived in Orlando for around a year from the end of 2016 into 2017. During that time I met some wonderful people. Every person was special and had some role in shaping me into the woman I am today, right now, as I write this for you to read. Yet, the most influential, the most important, the one who I’m so happy I even got the pleasure of meeting was my friend, J.S.
On our first date I mentioned to him that the movie we were watching reminded me of Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy. To this he agreed and responded with the question, “Have you ever read the books?” I replied, “no.” He urged me to read them because they were better than the movie version, as most books are. I said I would and we dropped the subject. We kept talking after that and had our second date a week or so after our initial meeting. As I was getting ready to head home from on that night he stopped me and said he had something for me. Now I’m not one who likes surprises, this is probably because I want to know anything and everything that’s going on in order to be prepared. He goes into his office and comes out with a book. The complete Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy series. All five books in one LARGE paperback. Of course, as soon as I saw it I chucked and asked him if he was lending it to me. To that question he responded by saying, “No, I bought you this because you need to read it. I told you how great the books were.”
I was a little awestruck, but gladly accepted the book. Now, I say awestruck because although the gesture was small, it’s not often that someone does that…at least from what I’ve encountered. I felt grateful that this person was thoughtful enough to have gifted me with something that we had spoken about just a week before, after only knowing one another for a week.
I immediately dove into the book. I became engrossed in the words, the pages, the story. After that second date we continued seeing one another and I continued reading the book, taking it everywhere that I went. The book continued to draw me into its pages, into its story. Simultaneously, I feel that was happening with J.S as well. I found myself wanting more of his time. I knew he was special.
We met through a dating app (it’s modern romance okay stop judging me!!). He was amazing. Great listener, could make ANYONE laugh, an amazing friend, and he had a heart bigger than the world itself. Many people can attest to this. He meant many things to a lot of people. Unfortunately, good things or people can’t last forever…as much as we want them to. The date was April 1st, 2017 when we lost a great soul.
“Lost,” what a weird concept…we throw the term around when speaking about people as if we can find them later, as if they were just misplaced for a moment. If only that was the case.
It’s hard to deal with loss, at any kind of level. But that’s life. We live it, we go through things, we learn, and we repeat.
The news was unbearable to say the least. I was midway through the 3rd book of the series around the time I got the news. Despite my many attempts, I have not been able to pick back up where I left off. The book has transformed into a connection, something that binds us, although he may not be here physically. I know I will never forget him. You cannot forget the people in your life who have shaped you into the person you are today, whether you hate them, love them, admire them, and so on. Yet, I have this awful thought that runs through my head. I want to stow it away in a compartment of my brain that forgets. But this is not possible. I think that if I finish reading this book series, he will stop being a part of my life. In my eyes, we will lose the connection we have because this is the only tangible thing that we have to connect one another.
For now it sits in the corner of my room, always visible, but never handled. One day I will pick it back up and begin to read again. But for now, it serves as a reminder to cherish everyone that comes into your life. It echos the laughter and happiness that he was able to give everyone in his life and for that I will always be thankful.
I know you’re hitchhiking your way around the galaxy J.S. Thank you for everything.
Remember to always stay golden-ish.
With love,
Jazmin